Cry Baby

Had a strange day today. Very emotional. Found myself in tears a few times. Not an all out ugly cry, just all teary and brimming with emotion.

In fact, now that I stop to think about it, this has been happening since the weekend. I don't really know what it is about. Well, ok, I know what is about, I am just not sure what the trigger has been recently.

The Olympics certainly are not helping. I am tearing up every medal ceremony, Michael Phelps sent me over the edge 8 times, and those damn Morgan Freeman Visa commercials...

I am irrationally nervous about Sean's embolization tomorrow. I don't know why. I not usually emotional or overly nervous before my ER and this is on the same "level." Are you always more nervous when you are the one in the waiting room? In the waiting room I will be for upwards of 2-3 hours. Send some positive thoughts our way!

In the words of Oprah, I had a few "A-ha moments" this weekend. I am *ready* to do something about my weight. Not a short term fix, but a long term lifestyle change. I have never been overweight in my life and then the last 4 years have found me in a body I now longer recognize. I know I am an emotional eater and it is no wonder that this IF journey has helped me pack on the pounds. Add in the fact that we have moved 4 times in four years, changed careers and opened a business among other major life changes and I am a card carrying member of the "plus sized" club.

Sean & I checked out a few gyms this weekend and found one that we feel fits our lifestyle, or maybe I should say our desired new healthy, active lifestyle. We are doing a 7 day free trial to see how it "fits." I am also contemplating adding Weight Watchers and/or Dr. Oz "You on Diet" back into the mix for the nutrition piece. I want to make sure we are making small, manageable changes that we can incorporate into our lives in the long term. It is really important to both Sean & I to be good models for our future children. I am not looking to be a size 4, but I am shooting for healthy and active. Sean does not really need to worry about his weight, but his shoulder surgery was almost a year ago and he is really feeling the need to build up his upper body strength again. We could also both use the energy boost that comes from being more active. I know this sounds like the ultimate put-off, but we are getting on track as soon as Sean's surgery is behind us, but I don't mean an indefinite time frame, I mean this weekend!

Anyway, sorry for the ramblings, I am just in a strange place emotionally right now...