Thursday, December 17, 2009

Nesting as therapy

Well, things are cruising right along around here! We are 1 week from our EDD and as ready as we are going to get! I even managed to clean out that pesky tupperware cabinet last week. I am confident I can find more things to knock out around here, but as far as prep for Ralphie, we are all set!!!

Part of my nesting involved cleaning out my IVF cabinet which I had been putting off for my entire pregnancy. At first I suppose that was out of fear, but then it just became a fixture of my life and honestly, hard for me to let go of. I did coordinate a donation with another girl who is OOP and that felt great and yet I still felt the need to hang onto some of it. I donated meds that were set to expire, but anything that had at least 6mo left, I boxed up and put away along with all my sharps, gauze, alcohol pads etc... I don't really know why. It is pretty unrealistic that I would be ready to cycle again in 6 short months, especially since I plan to breastfeed for a year and yet, I just couldn't get rid of all those meds. It felt so familiar to handle them - I could smell them, I could feel the sting of the needle and the burn of the meds entering my bloodstream. It was bizarre.

As close as I am to holding my baby in my arms, I still have a big part of IF inside of me. I still cry every time I hear one of my IVF anthems - Her Diamonds by Rob Thomas, Broken by Lifehouse and Shattered by OAR bring me right back to my darkest days and reminds me of how much I have to be thankful for this holiday season. To all of those still in the trenches, I am thinking
of you and wishing you strength during the holidays and hope for the new year!

Here it is! The 39w update and I am thinking it might be the last one...hopefully those words don't come back to bite me!

How am I feeling? Ready to meet my little one! A little sad that this part of my journey is coming to an end. I will miss being pregnant and hope I can experience it again some day. Still peeing an insane number of times p
er day! Fetal movement is sometimes painful as he/she runs out of room.

Milestones: The final days are here! It has passed me by in a flash...

Signs of Labor: YUP! I lost my mucus plug/had bloody show this morning!! Have had more braxton hicks over the past few days. At my 3
8w appt, I was 90% effaced, cervix was midline and soft and the baby was -2 station. No dilation. If I don't go into labor this weekend, I have my next internal on Monday! I know all this could mean nothing more than hurry up and wait, but it could also mean that labor is right around the corner. Either way, my body is working hard to get ready!

Cravings: I have been really hungry lately! Still eating my waffles daily and drinking my chocolate milk :)

What do I miss? Putting on my own socks :)

What am I looking forward to? The big day! So m
uch anticipation...

Weight gain: 9lbs total - I have gained 4lbs in the past 2 weeks and MW thinks it is mostly fluid as my legs have been a little swollen. BP is perfect!!

What am I doing to help labor along? Drinking Raspberry Leaf Tea - at least 2 cups a day- and taking 1500mg of Evening Primrose Oil
daily. Walking, having sex, bouncing on the yoga ball, doing squats, and eating spicy foods!
When does the family arrive? Wednesday!! I can't wait!

So that's it. I am thinking I may go into labor over the weekend - the 18th is my Dad's bday and he has been deceased since 2000, so that would be kind of special. We are also expecting a winter storm this weekend and that would be appropriate for our little snowbaby!

Thank you to everyone who responded to our poll and too
k a guess about Ralphie's birthday!

I am wishing all of you a very happy holiday season - may all your dreams come true!


'Murgdan' said...

:-)...almost time! Love the picture!

mummydr said...

Gosh, nearly at the end of the journey, I hope it all goes smoothly and soon. I love your pic.

sweetpeanme said...

Can't believe its right around the corner..decorating that tree must have been even more fun this year!!!

poppy.f.seed said...

I totally saved IVF meds too, with similar thoughts. In fact, I still have them, and need to donate them back to my clinic for someone else.
You look great!

Barefoot said...

Yay!! Good luck -- I hope things move along quickly for you. Can't wait to hear if Ralphie is a Ralphie or a Ralphette!!

I totally hear you on the IVF meds/supplies -- I don't have anything usable left, but I refuse to throw ANYTHING away until the baby comes, out of some sort of fear that it will jinx everything.

Anonymous said...

I cannot believe that it is almost here - I am so excited for you!

Katie said...

That was such a beautiful post; it brought tears to my eyes! I am SO happy for you and thrilled you are about to meet your sweet little one! May God be with you and bless you with a wonderful labor and a happy, happy day!! I know it will be so very special:)

Just Another Infertile Mother said...

You are so close!! I'm happy for you. I've yet to clean out my IVF stash and my baby's three months old. Sometimes it is still too painful to deal with.

Rest up and try to enjoy what little is left of your pregnancy.

Kristen said...

I simply cannot believe you are down to one week left in this pregnancy! It seems like just yesterday we were hearing about your bfp.

I wish you and Sean all the happiness in the world as you await the arrival of your little one. I will be anxiously awaiting your update! :-)

Mandibula said...

Enjoy the last few days!! Do something nice for yourself, a little goodbye. I couldn't clean out my stash, DH had to do it-when I wasn't home! I kept saving stuff! I can't wait for an update with HIS baby pictures! Go team BLUE!

Carrie1074 said...

Good luck! Can't wait to hear about Ralphie's arrival!

Sue said...

I completely hear you on the IVF meds thing. I donated some of mine that were likely to expire before I could use them but couldn't let go of one silly vial of the PIO and all those needles and gauze...I finally boxed mine up too. I also oddly feel the need to tell people we did IF when they comment on my pregnancy...not sure why and it always surprises me when I do it.

So excited! You are so close and your body is doing everything wonderfully:-) Great pic!

Maria (MKC101103) said...

I hope you go into labor just so you don't have to endure another internal!

And I think I saved my meds until I actually had EJ in my arms.

I think I'll be looking for donations in the next few months :)

PJ said...

Mmmmm... chocolate milk! I love a little milk with my Nestle's Quik!

Great picture! I'm very excited for you!