Wednesday, April 15, 2009

7dp6dt - Calm **Updated***

Miraculously, the anxiety is gone & I feel calm going into beta tomorrow. I have felt this way all day today & hope it continues through the morning.

I was dangerously close to POAS last night, but alas, no sticks in the house and a certain package from a certain someone (you know who you are!) that is rumored to contain evil sticks did not arrive. The whole way home from work I'm thinking, "Ok, if the package is there, it is a sign from the universe to test. If not, I'm out of luck and I will wait until beta." Walked in, had to pee sooooo bad, had been holding it for hours and NO PACKAGE, NO STICKS, NO DICE! My fate was sealed, wait until beta.

Ever since, I have been calm, cool & collected.

Beta anytime between 7am-9am, going to Amanda's to occupy myself, results between 1-2pm...EEEEEEEKKKKKKKKK!!!

I feel good, I feel hopeful, I feel optimistic, & I am thinking positively. Everything went according to plan - good thaw, good growth, 2 blasts to transfer, one hatching on its own, good hormone levels, smooth transfer, nice lining, some possible symptoms/side effects, no breakdowns, no blood (which can be a good thing, but it terrifies me), no terrible sinking feeling...

Did I mention tomorrow is my doggy, Libby's, birthday? Transfer on Sean's birthday, results on Libby's birthday - works for me!

Please, oh please let tomorrow be the best day of our lives........

16 hours and counting!

*** the package has landed and it contains 2 HPTs from my angels Christi & Jill. One lucky mojo HPT from each of their BFP cycles. Sweetest gift ever, completely made my day and it totally making me rethink my plan ;)! I am off to work for several hours so that will give me some time to think...Thank you ladies!!!*****

30 comments:

Bee said...

I have everything that can be crossed~crossed. I hope tomorrow really is the best day of your life!

Christi said...

almost there, hang in there!!! thinking of you and sending tons of prayers and good vibes

Jen said...

GOOD LUCK!

the Centurino Family said...

Good luck tomorrow and Happy Birthday to Libby! Thinking of you - follow the signs...

Clio said...

Emily, good to hear that you are a little bit calmer today. It's just horrible to be that anxious the entire time and waiting for results. Great idea to go see a friend to distract yourself too.
I'm totally crossing my fingers and toes for you tomorrow. May this be it!
good good luck!!!!

one-hit_wonder said...

Have got everything crossed for you.

Dre said...

A stranger here, hoping that tomorrow is the best day of your life thus far, but ultimately only the second best day after the day 38 weeks or so from now when you meet your baby(ies)!!!

Just me said...

Fingers crossed for you!!!!!

Meant to be a mom said...

Prayers and prayers your way!
And happy b-day to little miss Libby. I hope she gets a brother or sister for her b-day.

Barefoot said...

Everything crossed here as well. You are almost there!!!

Kristen said...

GOOD LUCK! Goodness, I will be checking for updates ALL DAY TOMORROW!!!!!

Xillary said...

Hoping you have a wonderful day tomorrow!

meinsideout said...

you go girl! I see the package arrived....I will be looking for updates like crazy over the next 16 plus hours!

This has to work, it just hast to.

Rose's Daughter said...

You are almost there!!

Andrea said...

Well, did you test? Huh huh huh? LOL. I really admire your willpower. Obviously, I have none. Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Carrie said...

This is so exciting and you are so close! Thinking every good thought for you!!

Hugs,
Carrie

Whitney said...

Best of luck! I am wishing you a BIG BFP!!!!

Lost in Space said...

Everything crossed, Emily!!!

Phoebe said...

Best wishes for an awesome beta! Hide the pee sticks!

RMCarter said...

Thinking about you still! Oh, time is going to be so slow waiting for tomorrow afternoon. Just know that there are SO many people out there praying for you, including me!!!

M. said...

I will be refreshing my screen all day tomorrow, waiting for your post! Praying for you, Em!!

MissMVK said...

Good luck tomorrow, Em! Praying and hoping so hard for you!

meinsideout said...

Emily - I am thinking of you this morning!

Jill said...

Thinking of you all day and sending lots of prayers your way! Happy Birthday to Libby!!

Glad the Pony Express could finally get it together to make a delivery!

momsoon said...

best of luck today!!! thinking of you, and sending prayers your way...

Anonymous said...

Fingers crossed for you. Hang in there

Lorza said...

I am SERIOUSLY impressed with your self restraint! WOW!!!! I hope your beta goes good today- I am praying for you girlfriend!!!

Leslie Laine said...

Praying for a positive, Emily! Can't wait to hear!

Just me said...

*tap tap tap tap tap*

That's the impatient sound of my foot tapping, waiting for an update from you... If I am this anxious about the results, I can only imagine how you are feeling right now!!!!!!!! Hang in there!

bella1021 said...

waiting patiently!!!hugs!!!