Monday, April 27, 2009

Scared & anxious

A few minutes after posting my last post, I was having some period like cramping - different than I have been having. A few minutes later, I went to the bathroom and immediately noticed some pink spotting in my panties. When I wiped there was bright red blood with tiny bits of clots. I immediately burst into tears and began rushing around calling my RE, Sean & my mom.

Dr. P called me right back and started off by asking how much blood and cramping. I told him everything and he said that I needed to go on strict bed rest & stay there until bleeding stops. He said to drinks lots of fluid and to call back if the bleeding increases to more than a period and/or if I am in extreme pain. He said it is normal - 2 out of 3 women have some bleeding in the 1st tri- and that it doesn't mean that I am at increased risk. He restated that my blood work looked great this morning & that I should try to calm down. I asked about coming in for an early u/s and he said unless there is a compelling reason, he really wants to avoid irritating the uterus right now, he also wants to avoid unnecessary anxiety.

If and when the bleeding subsides, I may push to move my u/s up to Friday for some peace of mind.

Sean came home right away and I have calmed down a bit. I went to the bathroom a few minutes ago and there was no blood on the liner, but when I wiped there was still pink spotting. I would describe it as more than spotting, less than a period, kind of like the 1st day of AF before full flow.

I am a nervous wreck. All my hope and optimism went right out the window as soon as I saw red. I am trying to stay calm, I am trying to remember that this can be normal, but I am scared to death.

Please, oh please hang on little one. Please don't take this little miracle away from us...

40 comments:

Christi said...

that's EXACTLY what happened to me!! the cramping is gone and the bleeding is subsiding, all good signs along w a great beta this morning!!! hang in there **HUGS**

Steph and Bran said...

Oh my gosh, how scary!!! I don't want to give you any false hopes, but I have talked to a lot of people lately who had the same situation and bed rest totally cured it. So I hope the same thing happens to you! Best of luck...

Carrie said...

So much easier said than done, but your doc is right: so many women with HEALTHY pregnancies have this! I am so sorry something so scary is happening, and I am sure you are terrified. I would move the u/s up if you can, cause you'll feel so much better.

Try to think of all the great signs so far, and the amazing beta! I am thinking SOOO much of you.

Big hugs!
Carrie

The Patterson's said...

Oh Emily! I will say a little prayer for you right now...stay rested and get lots of water. You had a great beta this morning!

((HUGS))

cady said...

i had bleeding at the beginning of my pregnancy too, and i'm still having cramping. it freaked me out too, but my doctor said the bleeding likely is from the embryo pulling on the uterine wall. hang in there!!

fmo said...

It happens all the time. So many women have bleeding and have normaly pregnancies. I actually do not know anyone that has not had it.
I would try to move the u/s up for a piece of mind.
Good luck to you--hang in there.

Just me said...

Oh sucky!!! I am thinking of you and hoping that this is just normal T1 spotting. {{{hugs}}}

Sprogblogger said...

So scary, but do try not to worry too much. (yeah, right!)

Everyone I know who's had a healthy pregnancy has had bleeding - more than they thought was "normal". I think bleeding more than you think is normal is actually, um, normal.

But so scary. Keeping you and Jack/Dianne in my thoughts. Take care of yourself!

Busted said...

I know it's scary, sweetie, and I'd be lying if I said that if it were me I wouldn't be freaking out too, but hang in there and try not to stress. Chances are all is ok. (((HUGS))).

Ashley said...

You and your little bean are in my prayers!!

'Murgdan' said...

Thinking of you...how scary. It IS normal, but nonetheless still anxiety provoking. Hang in there. You're in my thoughts.

Emily said...

I had the same exact thing happen, right at the end of 5 weeks, beginning of 6. Went to the bathroom and wiped, bright red blood and clots. I freaked. My doctor told me to go home and put my feet up and come in the next day for an u/s if I was still having the spotting and cramping. Over the day it got better, but was still a little clotty and pinkish the next day. I had the ultrasound, they saw a heartbeat, which calmed me right down. After that day the spotting went away for a week and then it returned, but more mild and lasted for about a week. I had a totally normal pregnancy after that and am now the proud momma of a beautiful, healthy 10 month old girl :) Hang in there, TONS of women have spotting and no issue at all. I know that doesn't make you feel alot better when its your baby and your pregnancy, but just try to not panic to much, chances are everything is fine :)

Jill said...

First of all, AWESOME beta! That is the most important news!!

Second -- the EXACT same thing happened to me -- I mean EXACT. The day I got my third beta, while I was waiting for the number, I had bright red bleeding with some clots. It stopped that night, and I never had any other bleeding. We found no cause for it -- at my first ultrasound, everything looked perfect. I hope the same for you. I know it is the scariest thing, but take care of yourself and get some rest. You are in my prayers that everything is just perfect with Jack & Diane. :)

Mandibula said...

Honey, honey! Same story here. As hard as it is, just push it out of your mind. We're all rooting for you! I bled for two weeks straight, on and off, and still have a set of babies cooking. Bleeding happens more often in multiples too. Don't worry yourself.

Barefoot said...

Oh, sweetie, hang in there! I'm so sorry that things are so scary right now. I am sending all kinds of good thoughts your way.

Caroline said...

I can only imagine how scary this is for you. Hang in there. Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. x

Anonymous said...

Okay, I have to add my scary bleeding story too. I happened to absolutely GUSH bright red blood and here I sit 24 weeks PG. It is scary as hell but I hope you find comfort that other women have had similar experience and are fine. Good luck!!!

Jill said...

I know you're scared. Makes perfect sense, but sounds like things are improving. Just stay put and don't do anything other than use the bathroom. Glad Sean is home taking care of you!

Take care of yourself and that little one(s). I did vote for 2! Try to stay calm as much as you can. ((HUGS))

meinsideout said...

HUGS, HUGS, HUGS, AND HUGS...

Flutterby918 said...

Oh Emily, you are in my thoughts!!

Jill M. said...

Oh hun, I know how it feels to see red, it's a horrible feeling and will bring on instant tears. I know you are terrified, but try to take it easy and know that sooooo many women experience this and go on to deliver healthy babies. Thinking of you...

bb said...

Emily, so sorry that you are having a scare! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!!!!!

kayjay said...

I'm so sorry that this is happening and worrying you. I don't have any words of advice - just a little hearsay but I have heard of many other women who have had spotting like yours and it turns out fine. Hang in there. HUGS.

Leah said...

It happens to alot of us. I had gushing blood at 6 weeks 1 day. Turns out it was a huge blood clot. I bled for the next 6 weeks but I'm still going strong! 22 weeks on Wednesday! Try not to freak out yet. Easier said than done, I know.

My open roads said...

Oh gosh, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! The doc is right though, the bleeding at the beginning of pregnancy is so common, it's just so very frustrating having to wait for some decent answers and an ultrasound!

Chhandita said...

Sending positive thoughts and love!!

I have heard so many women bleeding through their pregnancies and going on to have beautiful healthy babies. So keep your feet up...

G & H said...

YOu are so loved and so being prayer for!!! Blessings blessing!!!

meinsideout said...

E - thinking of you this morning and I hope all is well.

bunny said...

thinking of you and hoping for the best.

ashley said...

I'm praying for you little one to hang on. If it's any peace of mind, my sister-in-law, for all three of her pregnancies had bleeding and spotting the whole time. She was scared to death each time it happened but she has three beautiful children. Hang in there!! Keep us posted!

poppy.f.seed said...

The fact that there are no big clots is very hopeful! That is how I knew we'd lost our baby, in Sept.
I know the bleeding sucks, and it sucks that it is normal, esp. for people dealing with IF. I will be sending sticky vibes your way!!!

lifebytheday said...

Thinking of you and sending positive vibes!! Rest, rest, rest!

dreamsandfalsealarms said...

ARGH! Why must our uterus toy with us like this!
forget not the hematoma's. They can bleed alot and not threaten a pregnancy all that much.
Do you read "Are we there yet?" She had a lot of bright red bleeding and was preparing herself for the worst, and low and behold, she had a hematoma. I read somewhere that IVF pregnancies are more prone to bleeding than non IVF pregnancies. Stay down and stay hydrated!

Ms. Perky said...

Oh honey, how horrible. It's never easy for us, is it? I had bleeding (full on, full-flow period-like bleeding) through my entire first trimester. As much as 30% of women experience 1st trimester bleeding in healthy pregnancies - but that doesn't make it any more pleasant or any less scary.

Take good care of you. I'm so glad that Sean has been so great - you need lots of TLC right now. Good luck with your U/S.

Bee said...

I hate that you have to worry like this after you have been able to be so positive! All it takes is one scare for optimism to become a difficult thing to hold on to. One thing that stands out for me though is how wonderful your hcg was that very day! I am praying for you and hoping you can relax a bit until everything resumes as should be.

Maria (MKC101103) said...

Just as the others said, that same thing happened to me too. I know how scary it is but I hope you've calmed down a bit since yesterday. I had spotting at a bunch of different weeks. You'll be glad when you get to rent a doppler so all of these little spotting incidents can be put aside when you hear your little one's heartbeat :)

Anonymous said...

I know this is scary...but I had the same thing for a few days when I was 7 weeks pregnant and I am now a mom to a beautiful 2 month old baby boy. My friend also had spotting her ENTIRE first trimester and is now a mom to a wonderful 6 week old.

We have severe MF infertility and we transferred 2 frozen blasts. My numbers were very high and then were lower the following week. My RE suspected one blast started to grow and then stopped based on the u/s, and that's why I bled for those few days, and that explained my beta numbers coming down.

Hang in there! I am saying a prayer for you.

Meant to be a mom said...

I bled also due to the progesterone I was on. It softened my cervix and I bled easily because of it. I also had a friend who bled through most of her first trimester. BADLY. She has a healthy baby now. Don't give up hope. I'M PRAYING FOR YOU AND YOUR BABY(S). I'll be thinking of you. Please keep us updated.

Somewhat Ordinary said...

I don't have any words of wisdom, I just wanted to tell you I'm thinking of you. Hang on little one, hang on!

M. said...

Oh gosh, Emily!! I'm glad to hear it stopped -- and I'll be waiting with baited breath to hear about the u/s this week. Take comfort in knowing that I had 3 major bleeding incidents during my pregnancy. One was at 3 weeks, when I thought I had gotten my period, one was at 6 weeks, 1 day. The next was around 7 weeks. The middle one was GUSHING blood. I now have two beautiful little boys. Bleeding isn't always a bad thing :)