Sunday, April 5, 2009

FET Madness - Day 18 - Thaw Day

This morning I had to go feed the vampires to have my P4 checked. While we were there I asked if our embryologist was available to talk to us about the thaw. She came right out & said she had good news to report - all 6 frosties survived the thaw! Sean cracked a joke and said, "Yeah, we're from Buffalo. They like the cold." :)

She went on to explain that their definition of a successful thaw is if 50% of the embryo's original cell mass survives. All 6 passed with flying colors! Some maintained 100% of their cells and most lost just one cell. I don't have the specs in front of me, but we have 6 embies ranging from 5 cells - 10 cells. They do not grade them at this early stage, but they were all good quality going into the freezer. We get our next report @ 11am tomorrow! That report will dictate whether we go for transfer on Tues or Weds. We are getting excited!

I am feeling pretty good, but a few side effects are creeping up on me. The bloat has set in & I have been having a touch of insomnia from the prednisone. I started the doxy antiobiotic this morning and had a bit of heart burn from that. Of course, I am a goopy mess from the Endometrin. JOY! Ah well, I will take this any day over the stress and crummy side effects of a fresh cycle.

I do not think I am going to make my weight loss goal of 20lbs before transfer and I have made peace with that. I am still holding on @ 16lbs lost and I feel good about it. I kinda hit a plateau the last 3 weeks and the meds are not making it easy this time - I think it is the addition of the steroids.

In other related news, we had an interesting weekend. A good friend of mine (I wrote about her pg announcement here) had her baby on Friday afternoon and we decided to be brave and head to the hospital to visit with the new family on Saturday. I knew I was in the right mindset to do it and I really wanted to be there. I wasn't sure how I might be feeling about going during the 2ww hell or god-forbid after a negative beta, so I figured a visit now when I am feeling happy & hopeful was a good thing. I am glad we went. The baby is beautiful and I am so happy for E & S. It felt good to snuggle a newborn for a little bit and let myself pretend this might be us in 9 months or so...

The night the baby was born, I received a special message from Jeanine, an acquaintance E & I both have in common. We both taught her boys in elementary school and have stayed in touch over the years via fac.ebook. Jeanine struggled with multiple miscarriages almost 20 years ago and now has a beautiful family and is one of the kindest women I know. She took a moment out of her day to send me this message:

Hi!! Thinking about you tonight--I know when we were having trouble holding onto pregnancies, it was always hard when our friends had babies--even though we were so happy for them it made us yearn for a baby that much more! I know it won't be long until we are sending well wishes your way! Just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you and can't wait to celebrate your little miracle!! Keep good thoughts!!!

It was one of the sweetest and most touching things anyone outside of my immediate circle has ever said to me. I was bawling when I read it. It was so amazing to know someone was thinking of me and my struggle at a time when we were all celebrating E & S and their new baby. I was over the moon for E & S, but it was bittersweet too, which I know I don't have to explain to anyone reading. I feel blessed to have such a wide network of love and support. Jeanine sent me another touching message today to say how excited she was to hear about the thaw. She just totally gets it, she has never forgotten pain and loss even though it was more than 20 years ago. She touched my heart this weekend.

Lots more to say, but I am pooped! I will save it for tomorrow's frostie update.

Thinking of my little embies tonight and hoping they are warm and toasty and growing so big & strong. Can't wait to bring them home...

16 comments:

Susan said...

Thrilled they all did so well! Hurrah for tough embryos! Here's hoping that one (or two?) of them is the one who's going to change your life forever. Fingers are crossed for you, keep us posted!

Andrea said...

OMG that's great news! So happy for you and I can't ait to hear how your little embies are doing! Grow, embies, grow!

Jill M. said...

Great new on the 6 frosties, wahoo!!! Best of luck to you!

mylifechronicles said...

Wow!!! Amazing thaw report! A 100% survival rate... so happy for you. I will be thinking of you tomorrow. I hope the transfer goes very smooth.
And that was very sweet of your friend to think of you during that time. Very thoughtful indeed. That's the kind of friend you need when one is going through the hell that is IF.
Good call on visiting the newborn now. I have to go visit a newborn too. But I have been postponing it. You are right... I should probably do it now, rather than say after a negative beta. (Even though I hope it is a positive... who doesn't!) That WOULD hurt more!
Anyways... Good Luck tomorrow! :)

Carrie said...

Awesome thawing embryos! WOO HOO! Those are some strong little guys and gals. :)

I love the note your friend sent you. That means so much, when someone pauses to tell you that they know, they get it. It does sound like you have a wonderful group of supportive women.

Can't wait to hear tomorrow! This is sooo exciting!!!

Hugs,
Carrie

RMCarter said...

How exciting! Sounds like you are off to a good start. I'll be thinking about you over the next few days and hoping for perfect results all the way through.

I wish we lived closer to each other too. The similarities in our stories are amazing. :)

meinsideout said...

OOhhhhh - the thaw report sounds incredible!! I am so excited for you - I cannot wait to hear about the next report!!

ashley said...

Congrats on the embies!!! And what a sweet friend you have!

Leslie Laine said...

I'm so hopeful for you, Emily! This is great news, and I'll be praying that things continue to mvoe in such a positive direction!

Christi said...

so glad to hear the embabies are doing well, anxiously awaiting the next report! come on embabies!! you have a nice warm comfy home waiting for you to thrive in!!!!

Just me said...

So excited to hear your embryo news!!! Fingers crossed for high grade and a successful transfer!!!

BTW- I left a comment to your comment on my blog. ;)

momsoon said...

great news emily, sounds like you have som strong embryos!!!!
I am sending out a prayer for a great report today...keep us posted!

kayjay said...

Awesome news about the frosties thawing so well!! That is so touching what your friend wrote to you and amazing that she still gets it after so long. You are such a strong person and very giving to go to the hospital to celebrate with your friend. Looking forward to your update!!

Barefoot said...

Congrats on the good news on the frosties! Fingers crossed that things keep progressing well.

Lisa said...

I have been computerless since yesterday morning and so so so glad to get online now and read this!!! All 6! OMG!!

one-hit_wonder said...

So thrilled for you - that is spectacular!