Wednesday, November 19, 2008

A New Day

It is the morning of transfer and I am feeling much better. I needed to work through my emotions, anxiety and disappointment yesterday, but today I am ready, I am hopeful and I am exuding peace and trust.

All of your kind words and understanding helped me get over the worst of it. I did my IVF meditation and it helped me let go of the negativity as well. Dr. M called me at home to see how I was doing. He told me that there has been a lot of good things about this cycle and asked me to trust and have faith at this point. He said I have age on my side and hopefully a good embryo or 2 to work with...

I am usually one of the most positive people you will ever meet and I hate being in the dark place I was yesterday.

Transfer is at 3:15! For now, I am off to Barnes to pick up Breaking Dawn and B.lockbuster to pick up movies for bed rest. I will meditate one more time and Sean & I will get on the road. I am ready to being my embies home! Dr. M mentioned that if there are 2 good ones, he will be a big advocate of only tx those 2, Sean is pushing for 3. We'll see when we get there and take everything into consideration before we decide.

Thank you again for all the positive, supportive, hopeful words.

"Anxiety is space between 'now' and 'then'." ~ Richard Abell.

16 comments:

bella1021 said...

Prayers!!Glad to hear you are in a better place today- and yesterday it was ok to be in the "dark" place-- you are human with emotions and expectations... it happens...
Have fun reading Breaking dawn.. just started it last night... its taking me a little bit to get in to it....

mylifechronicles said...

Wishing you all the very best! You are in my thoughts

bella1021 said...

oops nevermind-- i am way ahead of myself-- i just started new moon- but i do have breaking dawn waiting ;)

ps- my word verification is oveness-- you are gonna be a great oven for your little embies :)

Leah said...

I'm wishing you the very best!! I'm sending as much positive energy as I can.

Best of Luck.

I know it will turn out great.

fmo said...

Good luck today!! I found your blog when I was recently dx with IF and looking for to read stories of people going through IVF. I have really apprecaited your blog--thanks. Good luck today

Virginia said...

What a warm and wonderful post Emily. I really like your doctor! I am going to stop and send you good vibes at 3:30. What time zone?

Emily said...

3:15 EST ;)
Thanks girlies!

poppy.f.seed said...

good luck today, I hope the transfer goes wonderfully, and you relax and get ready for the embryo(so) to snuggle in.

Amanda said...

I've been thinking about you all day and sending my good thoughts up to the Fog. :) Love you both.

sprogblogger said...

So glad you're feeling better today. The dark place is maybe necessary to visit sometimes, but it's better being able to leave it behind.

You're in my thoughts!

Virginia said...

how'd it go??? could you feel our good vibes?? I ran across several blogs today with ladies who had 4 or less embies to choose from and are now pg. you're next!

Maria (MKC101103) said...

I hope all went went at your ET today and that you'll be resting on your couch soon enough. Tell those little buggers to snuggle in for the next nine months!!!

Jill said...

Sending lots of prayers -- good luck, sweetie!

April said...

thinking about you :)

*hugs*

Clio said...

Hoping everything went fine and that you'll have very good news soon enough.
hugs

Lisa said...

Thinking of you - you are an inpiration.